Finally, the first of March. I’ve been waiting for today for quite a while. There is no real REASON for my wanting its approach, I was just ready for the beginning of something, the fresh start of something, a way for at least the calendar to say, “Ahhh, let’s try this again, shall we?”
I have a fondness for sunrise. I may have blogged about this before, but I love getting up before the sun does. There’s something about the washing of the new day’s rays reminding me of a constant, daily tabula rasa. I sip my coffee and remind myself that yesterday is done, and that I cannot wait for what today may bring, what newness and joy I can find.
In regards to my last post, it was the first step in standing up, you see. It was my way of going, “Damn….DAMN. I really don’t LIKE that man. Am I screwed up because of him? Well, only if I let that be the case.” After all, that was yesterday. Today, I am my own man. So, thank you all for the great emails and comments of encouragement. And even to the one individual who wrote that he was tired of me whining, thank you for that, too. I don’t think of it as whining, really. Just….talking sometimes. I have boot straps, I’ll make it. Let me take a blog or two to sit back and go, “Shit….What happened?”
Spring will be coming soon. I LOVE spring. Cool nights and weathered trees come alive with a brightness. Do you see the theme I’m working with here? I love newness, rebirth, rejuvenation….life. Things will be changing for me, as well, this season. I’m brushing off things that held me back, as I face the east daily in a ritualistic moment each morning. I’ll be changing the lay out of the blog, venturing into new areas of learning, of crafting, exploring new techniques and building up brain cells. I want to really REALLY push hard to get a solid hand held camera so I can move about a bit, do podcasts that will explore this creative life of ours; how its been therapeutic for many, profitable for some, philanthropic for others.
I want to get into teaching not necessarily how to knit, but how to take your passion and bring it out, work with it, make it a business, feed yourself, comfort your family, take pride in your life by what you do with your hands. I think in financial times like these we forget we all have talents. Our uniqueness sits there waiting to be utilized.
If you take a peek over to the right you’ll see there’s a little badge for Lionbrand. They’ve been incredibly good to me over the last year, so if you’re in need of materials, pick them up at their website. And if for anything, to let them you know you support a company who values a little guy like me, who saw me hurting and said, “We have to help him.” They’re good people. And we southerners truly do value good people.
And finally, I was cleaning out my computer a little while ago and stumbled upon a picture I had taken of a tablecloth I made a year ago. When times were tough, before I started knitting teddy bears, my friend George, with nothing much of his own, would share his food with me, would spend time with me. I had this crazy huge ball of crochet thread and would spend my quiet time (no television, no radio, no sound at all) whisked away into my own thoughts working up the motifs, and finally, when the tablecloth was done, I gave it to George to say, “Thank you. Thank you for being good to me. When we finally have the money and the time for a good meal, I hope we’ll have it on this tablecloth.”
I’d like to get into making those again. I really did love it’s intricate, yet solid form….and it’s homage to the days of Sunday supper at your granny’s. If you like this blog, donate. If you can’t, no biggie. We’ll figure something out. If you want a teddy bear, contact me. I’ve got some I’m finishing up, but I can always use the extra work. And if you need materials, see the Lion. And if you’ve got the time, stay with me a while. I’m looking forward to taking all of us on some wonderful new adventures this spring.