Just In Case

LET IT BE KNOWN, that if anything at all should happen to me, I would like for Kara Cook Rogers to have everything I own, including not only my possessions, but the rights to my books, my patterns, and my name. They are to be her’s exclusively and no one shall contest this decision.

Gregory Patrick

 

 

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13 comments

  1. I am praying very hard for you!!! Please, if you’re thinking of taking your own life, please, please, please get some help! Call someone. Go to someone. Do something. Anything, but that.

    Please! All of us that are your friends, we NEED you and we LOVE you. We are not always able to help monetarily, but we can help spiritually.

    Hell, man!! We’re losing our home, but we’re gonna keep on keeping on, just like we always have because we have FAITH and TRUST that GOD will keep us going!

  2. Gregory, your last two posts are really worrisome. Please find someone “with skin on” that you can talk to, and please be very good to yourself. I can’t know what you’re thinking, but suicide is a permanent answer to a temporary problem. All of us here have come to care about you and we want you to stay here in our world. You’re one of the coolest people I’ve ever met and I really, really want you to stay healthy and whole. Call somebody, okay? Please?

  3. Hang in there – we need you! We need your great spirit, and attitude, and your wonderful bears that ARE going to save you! I’ve been worried about you, and think about you often. Call someone. Post here. We’re out here to help and listen to you. Be strong. Pet your cat – he needs you!
    Hugs and more hugs!!!!

  4. I have just finished reading your book, which I couldnt put down till I finished it. You have such a special gift. I have been thinking about you constantly and worrying that you are ok. I lost my husband to suicide and it is still so painful even after 15 years. Please talk to someone, I am on skype if you want to talk. You have so many people who love you. Please stay safe and know that we are here for you. Love and hugs to you and Mario xxxx

  5. Gregory, I too am deeply concerned by this post. I’m pretty sure I recognize its tone and purpose. Having been suicidal to the point of needing hospitalization eleven times in the past 30 years–and having attempted suicide twice–I’m here to tell you that *every single time*, once I recovered, I was glad I hadn’t killed myself. So much joy that I could never have predicted came into my life in the times when I was not depressed. I would hate to have missed it all.

    Mind you, I didn’t pull *myself* through any of that. At least not alone. Nine times, I sought help. The other two times, the grace of the Universe kept my plans from succeeding. And every time, it still took weeks, even months, of accepting help and support from professionals, friends, and strangers before the clouds in my mind finally lifted.

    Depression is a disease of perspective. Even those of us who normally see the glass as half-full become unable to see anything but the emptiness. Not to mention the crack in the glass, and the fact that whatever’s in it is the last of what we have–or if it isn’t, the certainty that that time will come soon. And the fact that we don’t have the energy to wash the damn glass once we empty it. And on and on.

    I know that your situation probably feels dire right now. You may be feeling hopeless. Please, dear man, if you can’t think of yourself, think of the kids who will be deprived of the bears you haven’t yet knit. Think of the readers who won’t be inspired by the blog posts and books that are still in you.

    And then hang on. Not forever. Just long enough to get whatever help you need in order to stay safe. Then long enough to survive one day, one hour, one minute at a time until the despair lifts. I promise you that it WILL lift.

    I am holding the hope for you, as is everyone else who cares about you. You’ll be in my daily loving-kindness meditation until you’re feeling better. It goes like this: May you be safe from pain and fear. May you be happy and peaceful. May you be strong and healthy. And may you take care of yourself and others with joy.

    P.S. If it’s a matter of money, I’ve crunched the numbers, and I *can* wire you the amount necessary to restore your Etsy account. Banks aren’t open here on Sunday, so it would have to be tomorrow. I know it wouldn’t solve everything, but if it would help, I can manage it. I can even put a bit of it through PayPal today. Just let me know, by PM or e-mail, and I’ll put it in motion.

  6. Gregory, everything Rica said is absolutely true. I lost my brother to suicide in 1985 and the pain is still very nearly as raw as the day it happened. He thought he was in the way … taking up space … a screw-up … and things would never get better. And that everyone would be better off without him. Nothing could have been further from the truth. SO much hurt and pain ensued, and people’s lives were altered for the worse, with sad, sad consequences.

    I’m with Rica — I can send funds through PayPal today to help get your Etsy account restored. Let the people who care about you HELP.

  7. I don’t like this post at all. Please don’t do anything to harm yourself or take your own life. There are a lot of people who care about you. Please find help.

  8. Gregory, I don’t know where you are. I hope you’re someplace safe and that somebody who loves you is holding you close. Let me tell you, darlin’, I’m gonna be piiiissssssed if you hurt yourself in any way. You’re valuable, son, more valuable than you can possibly know, and people CANNOT KEEP themselves from loving you. You be safe, dammit!!!!!!!

  9. I sincerely hope we’re all overreacting but as with the others above I am a bit concerned.

    If it’s a matter of selling things, we can all help you out with that and give you other ideas on things to sell. First though, I posted a comment in the post from a few days back that you can get a free or cheap website of your own set up and even a paypal button to sell things. Be sure to keep several instances of your patterns on there. There may even be a way to do it here on your blog but I’m not sure. It’s been 10 years since I’ve written webpages and I don’t know much about the cart process to be honest.

    You are a very talented person and very creative. I, too, have been in a rut. I’ve not sold a hat in ages. I get to the point of doing so many sometimes I’m worn out and can’t catch out, can’t keep up with orders, have to go on vacation in the store, etc. Then nothing. I’m trying to come up with new ideas for my shop. Something wherein I don’t have to crochet for so long at a time that my knuckles are sore, something that doesn’t take such a great about of time and something I can get out into the shop quickly.

    We’re all still here and we still care about what happens to you. You’re story inspires people. YOU inspire people. They’re in the comments above and if you can’t see that then you do need to speak to someone. Quick. Please comment anything we can do to help you out if we can. Some already posted they can help monetarily while others can help in the form of ideas. Don’t give up. If you are thinking about suicide there are 800#s, you have friends, find a good dr. You know the pain of losing someone. We all do. I don’t think you’d purposefully inflict that kind of pain on anyone. Not to mention your nephew will need his uncle to teach him how to knit one day. 😉 Find inspiration. You’re not alone.

  10. Please, post something on here or tell someone to post something so that we all know you’re ok. You are loved beyond words.

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