The best gift I got for Christmas? Walking away…. I sure did. I had the best time ever this year. You see, the closer we got to Christmas, the angrier the world seemed to get. No matter where you turned, madness and doom seemed to permeate everything, everywhere. And I found myself falling into that mood.
Now, I adore Christmas, as do many. But, I wasn’t about to have my Christmas spoiled with this seeping sense of solemn disaster that was being dolled out by the news, social media, and your random trip outside to the store.
So, we made a decision. Stop it. Stop it now. I walked away from the world for a good week and let the world destroy itself. I wasn’t going to take part. No news, no television (ok, we watched Jeopardy, but that was pretty much it). No social media, no blogging, no internet…..I double dog dare you to try it. It wasn’t hard. It was enjoyable. I spent the time knitting up last minute orders, playing cards with Phillip, cuddling with my cat while watching my favorite old Brit-Coms, reading Calvin and Hobbes in the bathtub, and doing crossword puzzles while at my desk.
And I had the best Christmas ever. I was able to focus truly on the spirit of Christmas, and in that turn, was able to move myself into remembering the spirit of life itself. I cannot change the world, but I certainly don’t have to participate in its horrors, its rudeness, its aggression and complex psychosis. I can step back, at will, and let people beat each other up. I won’t and don’t have to be a part of that.
In my own solace I get to hold the world with a bigger embrace, a hope and a prayer that simple gestures, simple moments in life are what rise a person up. Much like a monk, I went quiet, and smiled with a great optimism, that this is not who, nor what the world truly feels itself to be. And my prayer was that the crazy dash to get a television on discount would be forgotten someday, and that the generous love of a greater source would fill the constantly emptying void we seem to be addicted to.
We put up our little tree, and as we discussed before, folded origami cranes as our Christmas ornaments. We put up candy canes for brightness and color.
And keeping with the spirit of staying simple and far from the “YOU MUST DO THIS” madness that this beautiful holiday had become, used a different sort of wrapping paper for our gifts. We live in Little Saigon in Orlando. We found the free newspaper written in Vietnamese, and with those amazing characters, it made for a really cool wrapping paper.
Now, the New Year approaches, and I’m going to hold strong to the moments I felt this Christmas. I viewed them as a blessing. Christmas, life, is not about getting something, but about giving something. Remember those crazy old days when we were younger? When the value of someone was their approach to the world? A boy approached his manhood with not “what can I get from the world,” but rather, “what can I GIVE to the world?” No reason those days, those morals can’t return again.
So, sorry for being silent….actually, I’m not sorry 🙂 I think it was necessary. I enjoyed it, remembered much, and put into my heart and soul those greater things in life that you cannot buy for a penny in the world.
Love you all! I’ve got much more to tell you! Stay tuned! The New Year! My magazine hopes! My birthday celebration next week! And an addition to our little brood!