So, I got up this morning with this plan in my head. 3am. No time to waste. First half of the day, work up a bear to sell to pay off my taxes, second half of the day, knit up a bear on order. I got off to a good start! And I was enjoying the quiet early morning. Imagine me in my pajamas, knitting furiously in a dimly lit room, listening to Coast to Coast AM on the radio. This episode was about a man who had recorded “Bigfoot” noises in the woods in the middle of the night. Ha! Ok, sounds hokey, but they take all of that very seriously on Coast to Coast. And you find yourself beautifully sucked in because of that. Like sitting around a campfire listening to ghost stories….
In the crisp new hours of the morning I whipped up this guy with yarn donated to me from the UK. Blue…..And what a great blue. It kinda shifts like denim, from lighter to dark, from here to there. There’s only, and if you’d like to have him, click here. He’s ready to ship with a signed card by me.
I’m surprisingly optimistic right now. With so much on my shoulders, I should be collapsing. But, that’s not really how I’ve dealt with things is it?
I rarely speak with my father. He wasn’t too sure of me when I was younger. I was frail, wraith-like, runty and boney. I wasn’t a strapping, strong determined man like he was. But, with what he has seen me witness, accomplish, and pursue, and just the manner in my tone, he told me recently, “Life keeps whipping you, and you barely flinch. I’m very proud of you.”
With just a hint of a smile, I said quite clearly, “Thank you. I appreciate that.” Sounds kinda cold (but it was kinda meant to).
Sometimes battling your dilemmas means battling your own emotions. Not everything requires you to drop into dramatics. Sometimes, you have to take it on the chin, vie to win, and leave your crying for another day.
So, I may feel a little blue now and then. But, I will knit my little heart out every day to build a rose colored world if I have to….
Latest on taxes: $4,301 left to go.
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