I was listening to a speech by Earl Nightingale. If you don’t know who he is, go look him up after reading this post.
There was something in this speech that caught my attention, something that leaned in and demanded I listen, there was something delicately true in what he said, one of those harsh truths that you deliver with a delicateness that only artists and lovers can understand.
He basically asked, what is it that you want out of life, and what are you doing right now, this moment, to make that happen? If you’re not doing anything, then the problem is you.
And we all have to answer the first question (what do you want) before you can even get to the second (what are you doing right NOW to get it?)
So, I ask myself that repeatedly. Because, you know, it tends to change. That’s life. The things we value and the things we dream about change constantly. For instance, I wanted to rock the literary world in glam fashion when I was in my 20’s. Yes! Wanted to be a gorgeously manufactured celebrity author with all of the gorgeousness of having paparazzi chasing me in my sunglasses as I dash to my next magazine cover shoot.
I wanted to be super author of the world.
And then, just a few years back I wanted to rock the knitting world with my ball cap and boots, belting in my blog with rhythmic prose the undeniable desire to really look into the craft and find yourself.
I wanted to be super knitter of the world.
Then you get older and begin to reassess what really matters to you. Life experiences can place you in moments of peaceful panic. You don’t know what to do, but you do know that what really mattered to you before, isn’t really worth your time anymore.
“So, Gregory? What is it that you want out of life?”
I want a home. I really do. A small, little hermitage that is mine for life. No one can ever ask me to leave, no one can take it from me. A small space for my husband and fur babies that will be ours for the rest of our lives. (Funny, isn’t that really the definition of heaven? This grand place of peaceful bliss where no one could ever ask you to leave? Wouldn’t it be nice if the knitting community where a little like that…?)
So, that answers the second question. What are you doing right now to make that happen?
I blog everyday, I knit a teddy bear, I take scruffy photos of myself. I’m doing at least something every day to make that dream happen. This is why you always see me on your facebook feeds, this is why I’m always posting, this is why I’m always selling selling selling another knit teddy bear or another book.
Because the older you get, the more you realize the chances of obtaining what you want out of life gets harder and harder. The window of opportunity begins to close on you.
You have to give everything you’ve got. Your wits, your knowledge, your battalion of teddy bears.
So, right now, at this moment, I’m writing a blog post to get me closer to my dream….
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