I knew the day would come. Considering our current climate of cancelling contradictory opinions and perceptions, I was sure the day would come when this little voice of mine would be silenced by the powers that be.
You know, in some respects, many would consider the idea of being silenced by the giants in the media conspiratorial. But, just when I start taking off, just when people start coming to my blog to read my own unique take on issues of angst and intolerance in the knitting community (and it’s macro cosmic effect on the greater society), I get squashed like a bug, silenced. But, it is all so very true.
A few years ago the feminist had a problem with my blog posts and had my twitter account shut down for good. They had me banned from facebook for a few days, they had people flock to my amazon page to leave hideous reviews to downgrade my 4 star review to a one star….and they did that successfully until I had to go through each of those hundreds of reviews and convince amazon that none of them were verified purchases and should be removed, getting my star rating back up to 4. So, I’m not surprised when the malicious mob of man haters rears its head to scream, “HE IS INTOLERANT! DESTROY HIM!”
But, this is the first time I’m actually seeing an active flip of the switch from the actual social media platforms themselves. In the last few months, my blog posts have been on fire. I really have been proud of the writing I’ve been doing lately, and felt it was precisely the “voice” my pen was finally speaking with. My numbers were growing, my audience was growing. Then all of a sudden. It was over.
This graph is from the dashboard of my blog. I can see the numbers rise, then gradually fall as they would organically. And then right when I was starting to skyrocket, they suddenly dip to nearly zero from 7:59 to 8pm. In one second, my blog posts were shut down, I was “muted” from social media. From that moment forward I went from about 2,000 engagements on my facebook page per blog post to only about 300.
Now, I love to write, I truly LOVE what I do. But, I don’t make any money off my blog, but I am able to get really good readers to come to my site, read what I have to say and hopefully have them buy a book, or especially buy a teddy bear. But, if my posts are being muted the moment they are shared on facebook, then I get almost no views, and obviously, teddy bears don’t get sold and I make absolutely nothing.
And it frightens you when you begin to think that the only thing I have promoted with my writing is individualism, sensibility, and understanding through the lens of a man who loves his craft, his country, and his Christ.
So, I sit here today wondering if there really is any future for my work. If they wanted to silence me, they’ve done an exceptionally good job. I have a new book coming out soon and it causes a little dread when you wonder how they’ll probably take to Amazon to have it banned, just as they’ve done with other books the mainstream disagreed with. I’m still knitting my teddy bears because that is the bulk of my income. But, what would be the point of knitting them if every where I turn, my work is being hidden so that it can’t be promoted.
And trust me, there are days I fear that every last blog post I’ve written here for the last 10 years will suddenly be wiped away because enough of the angry militia that doesn’t want a contrary view convinces wordpress to shut me down. They may have already tried. I just don’t know about it. But, that terrifies me. I fear logging on to my blog to find it gone because I violated someone’s “community standards.” (Which basically means, say what you want….as long as we agree with it).
I guess I should start keeping copies of my posts in a word document, or print them out for safe keeping.
My greatest crime is that I promoted peaceful outreach in a divisive world that is in desperate need of dialogue, rather participating in the hateful screaming match, name calling, and bullying that is now being praised by those who hypocritically say they are tolerant. And yes, by virtue, my greatest crime is calling out that hypocrisy.
You claim to promote “tolerance,” when all that really means is “submission.” Peace is a nuisance, a distraction from the war you rely on. Yes, you rely on people destroying each other to keep message of “equality” alive. And I refuse to participate in that.
Big tech and social justice keyboard warriors can do everything they want to silence my writing, but they will never be able to force me to pray at the altar of godless group think.
However, I will continue to promote the rational and simple truths that can only be found in peace….
…and will continue to refuse to give you the hatred you so desperately want of me.
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