All You Can Do Is Your Best

Well, it has been one week since I noticed my decline in weight and was anxious to get to Publix this morning. I have tried my best (sometimes unsuccessfully) to eat smaller amounts of food as often as possible. There are days where I do exceedingly well. Spoonfuls of peanut butter every half hour, or pita and hummus to alternate, pasta for dinner, a wee bit of ice cream for dessert. (I should be eating more ice cream, but at that point of the day, I am beyond full and force myself to even finish the pasta. But, it’s all worth it, right?

Then there are other days, like yesterday where I might have had one spoonful of peanut butter, one spoonful of hummus, and only a quarter of a cheeseburger. I just….wasn’t hungry.

We’ve also done measurements to check for progress. Waist: 27″, bicep: 9″ diameter (are you kidding me???), wrist: 6″ diameter.

I got on that dreaded scale, shaking. Still 105, 106. Nothing had changed. Not really. Except for the realization that if I took of my pants, boots, belt buckle and let go of the phone in my hand, my weight is probably less than 105. But Publix frowns on you if you disrobe on the scale in front of their store buck nekked. So, there is no way to tell if the scale compensates for clothing. Regardless, one week later and I haven’t made any real impact.

So, I made a mad dash through Publix gathering what I could on my budget. I had $30 to spend on the week and I think I did a rather good job. Cottage cheese, peanut butter, eggs (as you can see, I got the really really good eggs because they were on sale), and the basics to make a huge batch of chili in the crockpot. Plumped up with beans and served with rice, it’ll be packed with protein. I also pulled out $5 for the Angel, said good morning, told her I’d see her next time, and went on my way….

I know that this is a lengthy process. I asked someone recently how much weight I could expect to gain healthy weight. They said at best, 1 to 2 pounds a month….Lord, that seems forever.

Aside from patience and diligently eating when I look at a clock, I’m not sure what else to do. Protein shakes were suggested, but those are crazy pricey. Ensure and Boost were also mentioned, but I just don’t feel comfortable drinking synthetics. I would much rather just have the food. I also tried to get some bananas, because apparently, bananas are perfect for bulking. However, every banana was as green as my front lawn and not at all worth 80 cents a pound. Chicken was also promoted, but I have to say, unless chicken is on sale, I don’t buy it. Chicken is now almost $12 a package for two breasts, where sausage is only $2.50 a pound. I blame covid.

I’m going to start an exercise program next week. I’m trying to find one that doesn’t require a gym or weights, but mostly calisthenics. You know, push ups and sit ups, that sort of thing. I’m hoping to save up some money for a blender, or a magic bullet, something to make my own shakes with. Drinking my food might work better to start with.

But, in the meantime, I guess I’m off to get a spoonful of peanut butter and can only tell myself, “All you can do is your best.”

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  1. I would be more than happy to send you 20 lbs. No, I’m not making light of your situation. But, I would say stress causes many factors. Most of us gain weight :>). That is us women. And, one further suggestion – have you had your thyroid checked? Good luck to you.

  2. If you can stream stuff on the internet, then try for workouts. The basic plan is free (and that is ALL you need) 30 min workouts at home. They have a ton of different workouts available so you can do something different each day. Good luck!

    And you DID make progress this week. There is a one pound difference. Celebrate that and continue on….

  3. All my nutritional knowledge is from the aspect of losing weight, but I do know that you want to get good, nutritional foods. Refined grains and sugars are cheap, non-nutritive calories. Go light on those. Get lots of good, fatty proteins, like eggs, beef, salmon, nuts, avocado, full fat dairy – butter, cheese, ice cream. If you do go the route of protein shakes, get the ones meant for body builders, like Muscle Milk, not the ones for those looking to lose weight.

    If at all possible, try to quit smoking. Nicotine is an appetite suppressant. There are eh hem … other things … you can smoke that are appetite stimulants.

    DO see a doctor. This kind of weight loss is not right. Whether it’s stress induced or something else, knowing the cause will help find the cure.

  4. I send having your thyroid checked. An overactive thyroid causes weight loss and can cause anxiety. I know it’s hard to tell during this crazy time but it is possible.
    When I was a kid I didn’t eat much and was thin. The doctor suggested eggnog daily, using real butter and cream and drinking half and half instead of whole milk.
    Have you considered the local food pantry? It’s a great way to get some help when times are lean and a great way to give back when you can afford to.
    I’ll be thinking good thoughts for you. I think we all want you to be well and are here to offer support.

  5. As hard as it is try not to worry about it. Just do what you know will put on weight. Consulting a doctor is a good idea just to check for any underlying issues.

    Bodyweight exercises are also a good idea. This group emphasizes bodyweight exercises. Although it’s a paid subscription, their blog has a lot of free info.
    There are lots of bodyweight exercises online. And, as you know it will take some time. Fast weight gain or loss is unhealthy.

    Take care!

  6. Have you ever been tested for celiac disease? Just a thought. With celiac your body can’t absorb the nutrients it needs and you will lose weight and find it tough to put weight on. Yes, it is the dreaded “gluten free” thing, but there are a whole lot of other side effects that make this important to know. It just came to me because you mentioned eating pasta.

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